For the last few days, I’ve lost control of my mental game. (Wrote about that in the last blog post about Siberia – still the plan, by the way. Keep to myself, reduce noise as much as possible.) But my mind keeps slipping to the dark side – very negative. And in my funk, my little discomforts, sacrifices, inconveniences, annoyances, and insecurities have become more important than they are – I’m just living in my head too much and losing perspective. It happens. I indulge myself too much. And then something happens in the world – something real and scary and sad – that reminds me that all these things that I worry about are not only trivial, some just exist in my head – not in reality. Worries and apprehensions.
I forgot. I am blessed. Period. I lose sight of that fact and fall back into the “woes me, my life sucks” mentality for few days.
How do I fix my head? I get GRATEFUL. I expect that I’ll need to do this more frequently in the coming weeks. I also think I’ve blogged about gratitude many times. It’s how I cope. I took it for granted that I had this gratitude habit locked down. Apparently not. So I looked around and made a mental list of the big and little things that I’m grateful to have in my life. Some of these things would be what you would expect. Some things are a little random.
And this week, I’m really grateful to Sara Bareilles for this song…